As you may have noticed, I have taken a *slight* break from writing to this blog, yet it consistently gets 40+ unique visitors per week. Sort of a miracle, if you ask me. Anyhow, in that time, I:
-Graduated high school
-Got into college
-Started a YouTube channel
-Gave up that YouTube channel
-Started it again
But, I guess I'm back. Who knew, after so long, I would come back to perhaps one of my most cherished outlets that I lost to the sands of time. But, after some consideration, I believe it is time to re-assess what I am doing with my life, and more specifically, what I am doing here, and determine the future of The Sullivan Scripter.
For those of you who don't know, I am Justin Sullivan, hence the name "Sullivan Scripter," and I've been running this blog on-and-off since 2015, and it mostly started as a creative outlet for fiction, but it turns out that constantly churning out at least 1 chapter of some story a week piled on top of extracurriculars and schoolwork is no easy feat. So, I got lazy, decided to buckle down on schoolwork, and slowly drifted away from my passion. I became part of a YouTube group who is now long since disbanded, and we reached 1000 subscribers, which felt pretty good, until one day suddenly the leader disbanded it. Long after that, I reached Senior year of high school, which felt absolutely ridiculous. There's a quote from a Don Hertzfeldt movie (Don Hertzfeldt is most likely one of the best animators of our modern day, highly recommend what he has on YouTube) that goes "You never appreciate the present, until it is the past." I think this is the bittersweet power of the present, that you become so lost in the humdrum of today you don't realize that it is already yesterday. That's what Senior year felt like.
I had long since lost touch with my passion for writing at this point, and thought nothing of it. School had made me lose interest in writing, as I only fine-tuned my ability to churn out papers and essays, one after another. At least I felt productive. But I wasn't happy. I had given up writing fiction mostly at this point, albeit mild encouragement from family members gave me short-winded bursts of enthusiasm, which always lead to at least 1-2 pages written, but not much after that.
And so I made my way through Senior year and got accepted to a university, which felt quite nice actually. I made some friends there, felt good, lost those friends, and carried on in a depressed state until we reach present day: right here, right now, in my dorm room. I think the reason I am re-starting this is because I want to make a podcast about something. I've considered the many topics I could choose, and I can't quite decide. I just can't quite add humor to everything, as my humor is a very strange beast on its own, and I don't exactly have a voice for audiobooks or short fiction. I mean, any voice is a voice for anything if you make it your own, but I just can't bear to read a story without adding voices in it. I'd rather do an audio drama for those purposes than embarrass myself with miserably mediocre accents.
So here I am, writing this. I suppose the only thing to say now is let me know how you feel down below. I love comments, and unfortunately I never get too many of them.
Watch out for my Sullivan Scripter Podcast, where I will discuss something.. to be figured out.
Cheers,
Justin Sullivan